Happiness

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Life is not a happy ending

She is the strongest soul I've ever met 

And even she cries sometimes.

It is never easy. 

Dying a little occasionally is part of life. 

It is never easy. 

Only when I am with my cat. 

Otherwise, few things seem worth my while. 

But then I am here

In the flesh

Let me at least enjoy this mortal form while it lasts

I can feel the warm sun on my back. 

Taste good food, good drinks, a nice smoke. 

An exquisite bed to blow our mind. 

I want to live the moment. 

Also with her, the driving practice, 

Evenings at the mall. 

I do not know if Happiness exists. 

But I have known a few happy times. 

I cook your meal, buy you a shirt, 

Take care of the details. I like to belive I do good by you. 

So, at least while I am busy, my life has a purpose. That is why I like to care for you. 

While we keep up the search, however meaningless,

For that unicorn called "happiness". 

Mom tattoo

Today I saw this lovely doctor

She seemed forty-something and she was very sweet. She had a very traditional look, so much so that I was surprised when her patient complimented her on a very nice tattoo she had on her arm.

She said it was her mother's day present and it was very painful.

I just thought it was so sweet that she accepted to get a tattoo just because it was a present from her child.

I wonder what it was. I did not get to see it.

After this encounter, I might consider to get those mom + daughter tattoos my baby was suggesting a couple of years back. 

The 80/20 rule

This is what I was yearning for

I could always see it. 

What is the point, if not living this? 

We live for these moments 

Cause there is not always sun. 

I don't care about what happens 

Outside of this room 

On any given day 

I taste my favorite flavor in your mouth 

I feel you touching my back

As long as you are willing to stay by my side

Happiness is today. 

Thank you for making me smile. 

Part 2

I've no more patience for you, my dear

Not even to write you a verse

And I can't now

I can't 

No matter how great you were

I know you are still the same

That is why, dear. 

Because I have changed 

You were saying all those words 

Doing all that shit to try to hide the fact

That I was way too good for you. 

You tried to keep me down because you knew 

The moment I got up I'd walk away. 

And now you are trying to make me feel sorry that I left? 

Fuck you

Again. 

En tu duelo

En infinito telón azul se adivina la forma de la luna 

Que de lejos nos observa indiferente

Yo no soy la luna

Me puede tu dolor, pero estoy lejos 

Cómo quisiera poder acompañarte

Pero solo estoy aquí, escribiendo versos

Aunque sé que no hay palabras para consolarte

Mi existencia es muy trivial, perdona

Pero si de algo sirve, estoy aquí 

Para que la soledad no te coma

Porque sé lo que es, sé lo que se siente

En esta vida no hay más certeza que la muerte

Más siempre agradece que tuviste la suerte

El amor

Mira, que siempre es peor

No tener nada qué perder.