Desert

 If I ever get lost in the red mountains of the desert, don’t come trying to find me. For most certainly, death has found me first and I don’t want her to find you in this hot dry passage, don’t come find death. I don’t want you to see my shrunken, sunburnt, dead body lying down in this brown crystal tomb. 

I know the desert is ungrateful. It’s a place that can curse you back if you but raise your tone at it in a fit of rage from thirst.

The heat of the desert is no place to be by yourself. It is best to stay in your home. It is best to forget the desert. Best to forget me.

Love and friendship

 May your loved ones never doubt how much you love them 

May they have a “yes” for you most of the time 

May your life be boring good, except when you’re going  on adventures and be present and together with the ones you are together.

Even if we’re far away, I want to call myself your friend.

I will be your sunshine whenever, you can talk to me, I will listen.

I wish you all the love you’re giving and I’ll give you as much friendship as you give me.

For love and friendship hold this life together

Grown-up

 Circe says I've become a "señora de las lomas"

But I say I am more like the adult my childhood self would have wanted me to be:

Coloring pages till late, eating donuts for breakfast, playing in the snow in winter and in the water in summer, listening to music, watching The Dukes of Hazzard.

Yeah, I am a really cool girl. Bring me back to the 1980s. Y ¡que viva el sur! 

Eucalyptus

 I want to listen to you. Your voice shall never be alone as long as I am living.

You are my practice, because you make me perfect:

Perfectly happy hiding in your arms any given evening. 

I am your eucalyptus: cling on to me like a koala. 

At least there is a slab of reality that brings us peace. How hard it was to find it. 

But all the fuckery from the past seems to be undone by the present. And here we are: present.

People would say it's a gift from God; I'd say it may be heaven sent, but not a gift. We definitely worked for this.

And in the meantime, this place and time is ours to live. Live it fully. Feel it lively. 

Tennessee will always be a deeply cherished time of my life.