Raincloud

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The Rolling Stones said "She's a rainbow"

The Arctic Monkeys said "Crying Lightning"

I personally don't think she's either. 

To me, she's a raincloud most of the time

all beautiful and smelling like petrichor, 

all gray and complicated 

and making things better only when she wants

because she can.

So perhaps she is the rainbow and the lighting

and the cloud and everything in between

but I am just tired of getting wet 

and I don't know how to bring the sunshine 

and get her to enjoy a sunny day

because I love swimming pools 

and she has a hot bikini body

but still prefers the raincloud and she hates the beach

and I would like to tell her "Brace yourself

because life is going to hit you hard" -yes, even harder-

and I am going to be there for you

but I don't know if you'll want me

because I was so stupid some time ago

because I didn't do things your way

because I respond to your apathy in a way that you find abusive

and I don´t want to abuse you but I just can't wait

forever for you to do your chores while you're out 

with your friends and you think everything else is more important

and you're taking me for granted but then I get mad 

and can't help but become a bitch 

and then you get mad because I am a bitch -which I know I am and I am sorry-

but I wasn't like that when I told you first and you're just testing my limits.

She's a raincloud and I can't be the eternal umbrella.

And I know she'll say she doesn't need an umbrella but at the end of the day

this is her home. For now.

Maybe later, when she can afford her own, she'll go away.

And that is not because I want her to go, but it is her who says she can not stand me.

I don't know. I just ask her to make lunch and wash the dishes once a week.

And to smile once in a while. 

I don't know.

How does one love a raincloud?