Absolutes

You are myself times thousand

My reality 

My deepest dream

The part of me that is not tired

I stopped believing that you could exist 

Until one day I came into your life like a ghost 

And all the good luck in the world 

Would have never been enough just to find you 

And have me rooted to this earth by your warm skin and your smell

If I could make you into a sandwich and tea

And have you any given afternoon 

In the cool darkness of our room... 

May those moments be eternal

Like nothing else ever existed. 

Dream of Summer

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I dream of my summer in shorts

I dream that my bones are not achy and we are in a garden under the sun

And we have time. 

My dreams are a garden warm and humid and fruity and lazy afternoons with the fan on

And waterslides and iced tea.

My dreams are in the nineties.

Those true summer days seem so far away.

The sun's not even the same.

I want to look around and find a reason to smile in this day and time

Solstice

At 27 Celsius

This may be a normal day. 

Rain

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This rain, like a stranger's touch on my skin

All lush and fresh, completely welcome

A line of light in the dark and then the thunder 

And the drops of water slapping the thirsty floor one by one

Like an endless parade of kisses

I click my tongue to the rythm

And inhale its wet smell. 

My high

Babe, I know that you are not happy.

You are way too smart for that

But I don't care. I just want to see you smile.

I would keep the sky cloudy for you if I could

Your laughter is my high

You are the love I love the most

You are so dark yet you are my light

You are my forever more

I always want to keep you 

Always Happy

Baby, it's OK

You don't have to be the perfect tyrant that you dream about 

You can just be my child

Everywhere you look there is chaos, I know 

But know that you are strong

You are beloved

You are going to be just fine 

Despite this wretched world

Give me the gift of your smile 

I want to make belive that you are happy 

Even though I am well aware 

That you are too smart for that. 

All that matters

Get your nails done. Dance to the music.

The little details matter. You matter.

Doing as you please is therapy, too.

Turn your "happy" on, and turn down your worries.

Smoke that cigarette and drink that beer.

After all, there is only one life, but work is endless.

Get the nails done

and don't ever forget that you matter.

Daughter

May you remember me when I am gone

may you miss my baking and my cooking,

may you remember me through common flavors 

and try to find me in your own cooking, your own baking.

May you pass my love on to your loved ones through those flavors.

May you miss speaking English with me 

and whenever you have no one around to converse with,

may you miss my presence and those times of nonstop chatter

about nothing and everything, and may you then be certain 

of how much I loved you and how precious you always were to me.

May we always be together.

May I have a life beyond my life to love you and to protect you.

May you be the happiest daughter as you have made me the happiest mother.

Birds

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Birds are chirping outside. I hear them sometimes from my desk, but here they're louder.

Sometimes I want to scream like one of them. I regret not having wings and not being able to fly. 

All the wild bue yonder would be mine. No more bank accounts needed. No appraisals from work.

There is so much to say, yet we remain quiet. 

I wish I could raise my voice like a bird

and everyday enjoy the sunshine.